A Vacation From Reality

I’m taking a vacation from reality—
Stepping out so I can finally breathe,
Clearing my mind, opening my eyes,
Learning to live for today, not the fears of tomorrow.

My tears have drowned me long enough.
It’s time to rise, to let go of sorrow.
The old me has fallen away—
A shedding of skin so I can belong to myself again.

I’m turning negativity into light,
Redirecting every broken piece of energy
Toward healing, toward building,
Solving my battles one by one
So I can stop the slow burn of self-destruction.

I’m learning to love myself
Because in the end,
I am the one who decides if I’m enough.
I’ll listen to my mind, follow my heart—
They’ve never lied to me about a fresh start.

If a place feels wrong,
If a person feels heavy,
I’ll walk away until I find where my spirit fits.

A man who deserves me
Will see only me.
He won’t make me cry without regret—
And he’ll apologize when he’s wrong.
One day, I’ll untangle life’s mysteries
And find my way back home to myself.

My mind is tired—
Worn down by what I can’t understand,
Afraid of someone who stands beside me
Yet makes me feel small.
I’m tired of hating myself
More deeply than those who hurt me.
I’m tired of being unable to forgive
Things I never controlled.

I’m drained by the narcissists I attract,
The ones who feed on my soul
While calling it love.
I’m exhausted by the courage I bury
When I know I should rise and defend myself.

Most of all,
I’m tired of this weight on my spirit,
These battles of the mind
That try to claim my life.

I want to learn how to live—
Truly live—
Before the darkness learns how to win.